I am really looking forward to my training. I've gotten to talk to Master a lot lately, and She's agreed to video-log some of our play, I think She's planning to video-log most of my training, but She's said that there are going to be things that are private. I don't know if that'll apply to things included in my training, but it might. I am looking forward to posting the videos, though, at least on FetLife so that all of my friends, there, would be able to enjoy the sight of my training and observing my progress. I have no shame, I don't mind if a friend of mine that I've known for years wants to watch one of those training videos. I'll be proud of my progress, and proud of how I've done in my training, after all, why should I be ashamed to share that with a friend if they want to watch it?
I got to talk to Her this morning for 24 minutes. It was wonderful.
It was like 24 minutes in a tropical paradise.
Hearing Her Voice is like being in heaven, for me. Nothing else matters when I can hear Her Voice in my ears. There are a lot of protocols in the Master/slave dynamic that She's choosing not to use, in our relationship as Master and slave, possibly because of the fact that we've been friends for just about eight years, according to what Master said to me on the phone recently. My memory isn't all that great with some things, so if She says eight years, then eight it must have been. I was relatively confident in seven, but eight's close enough that I find it believable that it was eight years, y'know?
Whatever the case, I'm thankful to Master for allowing me to have some of the things that would be normally taken away in the conventional Master/slave relationship. For instance, I get to continue to capitalize my own pronouns. I am respected, I am admired, I am appreciated, She does not want it for me to lose these feelings by having to lower-case my pronouns, including the capitalization of it when I say "I" in a sentence, as I've been doing.
Some slaves are required to type their names and pronouns in lower-case, even at the beginning of a sentence, but Master and I are both fans of the English language, and She makes me feel so important and worthy. I think that's why I get to keep capitalizing my pronouns. I realize that it's very much a gift from Master, and one that I am deeply thankful for, but it's a gift and it's something that She can take away if I disappoint Her or misbehave.
There are other things that are found in the "conventional" Master/slave relationship which I may or may not be comfortable with but which are thus far not a part of our dynamic. However, they will not be things that are going to remain out of our dynamic forever, necessarily, as Master is drafting up our slave-contract, wherein I will get to sign myself into Her possession for as long as I wish to be a piece of property in Her ownership. I expect this contract to be binding for the rest of my life, since I cannot imagine a day where I would not wish to be Her property, wherein that would not grant me a feeling of great personal comfort. I want to be with Her for the rest of my life, and to serve Her. She makes me feel so good about myself, so safe and so self-confident, I can't imagine a day wherein I would leave Her voluntarily.
I Love You Master, with all of my heart and every fiber of my being.
There is no part of me that does not love every part of You, Master.
I Trust You, Master -- with my heart, with my safety, and with my life.
I am devoted to You Master, for You are my last thought at night.
I am Yours Master, for You are my first thought whenever I wake up.
- Protected Slave and Property of the Magnificent Miss_Misanthropy,
Privileged to be Master's Adoring Pet Whore, Ophelia
I got to talk to Her this morning for 24 minutes. It was wonderful.
It was like 24 minutes in a tropical paradise.
Hearing Her Voice is like being in heaven, for me. Nothing else matters when I can hear Her Voice in my ears. There are a lot of protocols in the Master/slave dynamic that She's choosing not to use, in our relationship as Master and slave, possibly because of the fact that we've been friends for just about eight years, according to what Master said to me on the phone recently. My memory isn't all that great with some things, so if She says eight years, then eight it must have been. I was relatively confident in seven, but eight's close enough that I find it believable that it was eight years, y'know?
Whatever the case, I'm thankful to Master for allowing me to have some of the things that would be normally taken away in the conventional Master/slave relationship. For instance, I get to continue to capitalize my own pronouns. I am respected, I am admired, I am appreciated, She does not want it for me to lose these feelings by having to lower-case my pronouns, including the capitalization of it when I say "I" in a sentence, as I've been doing.
Some slaves are required to type their names and pronouns in lower-case, even at the beginning of a sentence, but Master and I are both fans of the English language, and She makes me feel so important and worthy. I think that's why I get to keep capitalizing my pronouns. I realize that it's very much a gift from Master, and one that I am deeply thankful for, but it's a gift and it's something that She can take away if I disappoint Her or misbehave.
There are other things that are found in the "conventional" Master/slave relationship which I may or may not be comfortable with but which are thus far not a part of our dynamic. However, they will not be things that are going to remain out of our dynamic forever, necessarily, as Master is drafting up our slave-contract, wherein I will get to sign myself into Her possession for as long as I wish to be a piece of property in Her ownership. I expect this contract to be binding for the rest of my life, since I cannot imagine a day where I would not wish to be Her property, wherein that would not grant me a feeling of great personal comfort. I want to be with Her for the rest of my life, and to serve Her. She makes me feel so good about myself, so safe and so self-confident, I can't imagine a day wherein I would leave Her voluntarily.
I Love You Master, with all of my heart and every fiber of my being.
There is no part of me that does not love every part of You, Master.
I Trust You, Master -- with my heart, with my safety, and with my life.
I am devoted to You Master, for You are my last thought at night.
I am Yours Master, for You are my first thought whenever I wake up.
- Protected Slave and Property of the Magnificent Miss_Misanthropy,
Privileged to be Master's Adoring Pet Whore, Ophelia
i think, therefore I am.
ReplyDeleteI suspect this comment is motivated by waking up on the wrong side of the bed.
I have regularly seen the lower case/Upper Case phenomenon in the M/s D/s set up, and today, it rubs me the wrong way.
I am a fan of the English language. I as 'i' in every context looks like a repetitive typo. JuSt StOp iT. It iS aNnOyInG tO rEaD. It also bothers me that in communication, which I think is essential for any healthy BDSM relationship, the form should be perverted. Ultimately, isn't it content that is relevant?
Perhaps in other settings, like dress and body language, a pronounced and marked difference between the Dominant and Submissive partner is more pertinent. But with typed language, it just strikes me as people trying too hard with the superficial, and advertising to all and sundry "Look, I'm in a BDSM relationship! I am wanted, I am deemed worthy!"
In a truly fulfilling and meaningful relationship, I'd like to think that the submissive partner takes pride in their role, status and relationship. I would like to see that pride in their basic communication. I, I, I, I, I.
Also, heed the warning of the spell check i is a mistake.