All right, I want to start by saying I am sorry that it took me until 2:21 PM EST for me to update this. I usually update my blog significantly earlier in my day. I did not get to bed until very late as result of Master having a medical appointment that seems to have gone well, and She did not have energy until well after midnight.
That said, it was worth the wait. I got to talk to Her on the phone, and it was 108 minutes of heaven. I haven't gotten to hear Her voice until this morning, since the health scare on Thanksgiving, except for a few minutes at a time.
She has taken control over some of the elements in my life. I told Her, there's only one thing that I'm unwilling to give up, and that's the right to vote and to vote in which way seems best to be. That's a thing She doesn't want control over, and She promised me, She will always respect me voting right, and will not tell me who to vote for or punish me for not voting for who She wants me to vote for. Of course, She will still know who I vote for because I have Asperger's and if She wants to know all She has to do is ask and I will tell Her. I am unashamed of who I intend to vote for or even those that I've voted for in the past.
I proudly declare that I would have voted for President William Jefferson Clinton both times. I voted for Barack Obama. I intend to vote for Barack Obama, again. As far as I am concerned, he's done lots of good things and I think that he's on the side of freedom and equality for all, including those of us that are pansexual or transgendered, and those of us in the Kink Culture & Kink Society.
Master and I talked for 108 minutes. As I said, it was sheer, unadulterated rapture.
She explained some things to me about my spiritual identity.
Master and Miss Angel have both told me that I have an amazingly-bright rainbow aura. I wasn't all that clear on what that meant, precisely, so .. I decided to ask, when the topic came up and I saw a chance to get a clear explanation of what it means. This is a paraphrase of the explanation I got.
A rainbow aura can have two very different meanings. It could mean there's something wrong with you, something that's bothering you, something that is harming or weakening you, like a sickness or a disease. That isn't the reason that you have a rainbow aura. You have the aura like an actual rainbow. It means you are all-loving, all-understanding and deeply sensitive, it means you have an aura of beauty, it means you have a beautiful soul.
She also said that I am a very strong empath and a heart fairy. I don't know what a heart fairy is, exactly, or what precisely that means, but the entire explanation brought tears to my eyes, I have never been praised as much as I have been in the last few weeks. Ever since the beginning of November of this year, I have felt more loved, accepted, appreciated, admired, respected, safe, happy and fulfilled, than I've ever felt in my life. I've had people in my life that love me, but I have never had so many people in my life who loved me so much and cared so much about me at all, honestly. I don't know what to think about it, honestly, but I like it. It feels nice to have people that love me, care about me, and are genuinely concerned, affectionate, maybe even protective, for that matter.
So there is an excellent chance of me being able to visit Master for some period of time in January and that will at least mean that there's a strong likelihood of Her getting to claim Her rightful property (my virginity). I am very eager for this, being a thirty-year-old virgin is simply not a pleasant thing for me at all. There is also a decent chance of me being able to not just visit Tennessee but stay there, in a more permanent manner. She knows someone that is willing to let me stay with him while I am visiting Her, and She knows someone else that is willing to let me live with him. It's something that's got to be worked out in a more concrete way, there's nothing that's a guarantee thus far.
I'll live wherever She's comfortable with me living, I just want to be closer to Her than a 715 mile drive away from Her. It is heartbreaking to be so far away from the person that I love so much, I want to be near Her, I want to be able to serve Her. I don't know how far away either of them are, but being there and being in the same community, that's all that matters to me. I don't mind putting down my mattress in a corner somewhere. It seems like there are a lot of nice people in the area. I'd happily live with any number of them that have room for me. All that matters to me is being near Master and being able to serve Her needs.
I hope they can figure out how to get me down there and make it possible for me to be able to stay permanently with Her for as long as She wants me. I will gladly be Her property for the rest of my life.
I love you Master, with all of my heart and every fiber of my being.
I love you Master, as much as I have ever loved anyone.
Thank you for allowing me to be your property, Master.
- Protected Slave and Property of the Magnificent Miss_Misanthropy,
Privileged to be Master's Adoring Pet Whore, Ophelia or Phee
That said, it was worth the wait. I got to talk to Her on the phone, and it was 108 minutes of heaven. I haven't gotten to hear Her voice until this morning, since the health scare on Thanksgiving, except for a few minutes at a time.
She has taken control over some of the elements in my life. I told Her, there's only one thing that I'm unwilling to give up, and that's the right to vote and to vote in which way seems best to be. That's a thing She doesn't want control over, and She promised me, She will always respect me voting right, and will not tell me who to vote for or punish me for not voting for who She wants me to vote for. Of course, She will still know who I vote for because I have Asperger's and if She wants to know all She has to do is ask and I will tell Her. I am unashamed of who I intend to vote for or even those that I've voted for in the past.
I proudly declare that I would have voted for President William Jefferson Clinton both times. I voted for Barack Obama. I intend to vote for Barack Obama, again. As far as I am concerned, he's done lots of good things and I think that he's on the side of freedom and equality for all, including those of us that are pansexual or transgendered, and those of us in the Kink Culture & Kink Society.
Master and I talked for 108 minutes. As I said, it was sheer, unadulterated rapture.
She explained some things to me about my spiritual identity.
Master and Miss Angel have both told me that I have an amazingly-bright rainbow aura. I wasn't all that clear on what that meant, precisely, so .. I decided to ask, when the topic came up and I saw a chance to get a clear explanation of what it means. This is a paraphrase of the explanation I got.
A rainbow aura can have two very different meanings. It could mean there's something wrong with you, something that's bothering you, something that is harming or weakening you, like a sickness or a disease. That isn't the reason that you have a rainbow aura. You have the aura like an actual rainbow. It means you are all-loving, all-understanding and deeply sensitive, it means you have an aura of beauty, it means you have a beautiful soul.
She also said that I am a very strong empath and a heart fairy. I don't know what a heart fairy is, exactly, or what precisely that means, but the entire explanation brought tears to my eyes, I have never been praised as much as I have been in the last few weeks. Ever since the beginning of November of this year, I have felt more loved, accepted, appreciated, admired, respected, safe, happy and fulfilled, than I've ever felt in my life. I've had people in my life that love me, but I have never had so many people in my life who loved me so much and cared so much about me at all, honestly. I don't know what to think about it, honestly, but I like it. It feels nice to have people that love me, care about me, and are genuinely concerned, affectionate, maybe even protective, for that matter.
So there is an excellent chance of me being able to visit Master for some period of time in January and that will at least mean that there's a strong likelihood of Her getting to claim Her rightful property (my virginity). I am very eager for this, being a thirty-year-old virgin is simply not a pleasant thing for me at all. There is also a decent chance of me being able to not just visit Tennessee but stay there, in a more permanent manner. She knows someone that is willing to let me stay with him while I am visiting Her, and She knows someone else that is willing to let me live with him. It's something that's got to be worked out in a more concrete way, there's nothing that's a guarantee thus far.
I'll live wherever She's comfortable with me living, I just want to be closer to Her than a 715 mile drive away from Her. It is heartbreaking to be so far away from the person that I love so much, I want to be near Her, I want to be able to serve Her. I don't know how far away either of them are, but being there and being in the same community, that's all that matters to me. I don't mind putting down my mattress in a corner somewhere. It seems like there are a lot of nice people in the area. I'd happily live with any number of them that have room for me. All that matters to me is being near Master and being able to serve Her needs.
I hope they can figure out how to get me down there and make it possible for me to be able to stay permanently with Her for as long as She wants me. I will gladly be Her property for the rest of my life.
I love you Master, with all of my heart and every fiber of my being.
I love you Master, as much as I have ever loved anyone.
Thank you for allowing me to be your property, Master.
- Protected Slave and Property of the Magnificent Miss_Misanthropy,
Privileged to be Master's Adoring Pet Whore, Ophelia or Phee
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