I can't wait to get out of here. My adoptive mother drives me through a wall, literally through one, because of the fact that she knows my buttons and she just mashes my buttons until she drives me into a complete and self-shaming actions that I am not proud of, but which I couldn't restrain, either, because of how much she pushed my buttons knowing full well what the results would be.
I don't think I can stand being here until Friday. I feel like driving my Jeep into a lake right now and the worst part about that is there's three lakes within 10 minutes' drive of me that I could easily go ahead and drive into, to end it all. I've had suicidal thoughts all my life, but only two days since I've been with Master have I had this kind of depth-of-despair, but every day it gets harder, every day it becomes more difficult to take it. I can't handle this.
I need to leave.
God willing, Her envoys will be here Friday. I feel like I am going out of my mind. I feel like I'm just being driven insane.
I'm leaving my cell phone. I'm not taking it with me. I can't. I'm just not going to leave them to have any means of direct contact with me. No, I'm going to keep in touch through my big sister-in-heart Miss Alex, she's agreed that she'll give them the message from me that I've arrived safely and that they aren't to come looking for me because I'll be okay.
The plus side is, there are two indescribably amazing people that are giving me a room. I promise to be good for them.
I Love You Master, with all of my heart and with every fiber of my being.
I Love You Daddy, as much as I've ever loved anyone in my entire life.
I Trust You Master, with my heart and with my health and with my life.
I am Yours Daddy, I can't wait to be with You and spend my life with You.
Home has two rooms, Daddy, and being in Your Arms is one of those rooms.
The other room is on my knees in front of You.
Home is where I belong.
Home is where I can't wait to be.
- Protected Slave and Property of the Magnificent Miss_Misanthropy,
Privileged to be Master's Adoring Pet Whore, Ophelia
I don't think I can stand being here until Friday. I feel like driving my Jeep into a lake right now and the worst part about that is there's three lakes within 10 minutes' drive of me that I could easily go ahead and drive into, to end it all. I've had suicidal thoughts all my life, but only two days since I've been with Master have I had this kind of depth-of-despair, but every day it gets harder, every day it becomes more difficult to take it. I can't handle this.
I need to leave.
God willing, Her envoys will be here Friday. I feel like I am going out of my mind. I feel like I'm just being driven insane.
I'm leaving my cell phone. I'm not taking it with me. I can't. I'm just not going to leave them to have any means of direct contact with me. No, I'm going to keep in touch through my big sister-in-heart Miss Alex, she's agreed that she'll give them the message from me that I've arrived safely and that they aren't to come looking for me because I'll be okay.
The plus side is, there are two indescribably amazing people that are giving me a room. I promise to be good for them.
I Love You Master, with all of my heart and with every fiber of my being.
I Love You Daddy, as much as I've ever loved anyone in my entire life.
I Trust You Master, with my heart and with my health and with my life.
I am Yours Daddy, I can't wait to be with You and spend my life with You.
Home has two rooms, Daddy, and being in Your Arms is one of those rooms.
The other room is on my knees in front of You.
Home is where I belong.
Home is where I can't wait to be.
- Protected Slave and Property of the Magnificent Miss_Misanthropy,
Privileged to be Master's Adoring Pet Whore, Ophelia
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