Miss Tammy and Sir Sam are amazing hosts, I feel more accepted, respected and approved of at Random House (their home) than I've ever felt anywhere else. I am so happy to be here, now that I live in Clarksville, Tennessee. Master and I get to spend some time together, probably later today, so I'll want to be clean, shaven and rested up for that. I doubt we're going to get play-time because She's still recovering from certain things, but, every day She feels better than She did the day prior, and She told me that I make Her feel complete. I've never been told something like that before, and most especially not by someone for Whom I feel the complete and total dedication and deep love I feel for Her.
Hopefully there will be playtime for Master and I before the end of the day, even if nothing intimate, I am eagerly awaiting the sadomasochistic breaking-in. There's a toy I really want to try for what She calls "super masochists," which made Her think of me immediately on thinking of it in that context, I really want to try it out but Master said not yet, She has to break me in slowly and see just what kind of warmup I need (should I need a warmup at all, that is) to be able to take it. I'm not sure what level of warmup I'd need, but I'll concede to Her far greater experience that I probably need to be given a warmup before getting beat with the Purple Rose, but I'm anxiously awaiting it.
Miss Tammy is amazing, and she is a really good cook. I like her and I like spending time around her, and she gave me a big hug the other day, which was awesome. I love hugging and touching, I had developed a pretty severe haphephobia -- a fear of, aversion toward or just discrimination against being touched, though I really LIKE hugging and touching of all kinds, because my home life in my last place of residence severely discouraged any kind of skin contact for any length of time and made me feel bad about wanting to give people hugs. I love where I live, now, I feel so much more comfortable, approved, happy, and like if I want to give someone a hug, I can ask & that would be okay.
Thanks to my move, I'm definitely beginning to overcome my haphephobic issues, which makes me happy because I like being able to feel comfortable with touch, it's good for you, and Master spent a lot of time petting me as I knelt beside Her, during Our first time being able to be in each other's presence. It was ... screw it, it was fucking magical is what it was.
I felt whole and Home for the first time in my life.
I Love You Master, with all of my heart and every fiber of my being.
I Trust You Master, with my heart and with my health and with my life.
It brings me great Joy to be so near to You, living in the same city.
You are my Bright and Beautiful Sky, and I think of You every time I look up.
- Protected Slave and Property of the Magnificent Miss_Misanthropy,
Privileged to be Master's Adoring Pet Whore, Ophelia
Hopefully there will be playtime for Master and I before the end of the day, even if nothing intimate, I am eagerly awaiting the sadomasochistic breaking-in. There's a toy I really want to try for what She calls "super masochists," which made Her think of me immediately on thinking of it in that context, I really want to try it out but Master said not yet, She has to break me in slowly and see just what kind of warmup I need (should I need a warmup at all, that is) to be able to take it. I'm not sure what level of warmup I'd need, but I'll concede to Her far greater experience that I probably need to be given a warmup before getting beat with the Purple Rose, but I'm anxiously awaiting it.
Miss Tammy is amazing, and she is a really good cook. I like her and I like spending time around her, and she gave me a big hug the other day, which was awesome. I love hugging and touching, I had developed a pretty severe haphephobia -- a fear of, aversion toward or just discrimination against being touched, though I really LIKE hugging and touching of all kinds, because my home life in my last place of residence severely discouraged any kind of skin contact for any length of time and made me feel bad about wanting to give people hugs. I love where I live, now, I feel so much more comfortable, approved, happy, and like if I want to give someone a hug, I can ask & that would be okay.
Thanks to my move, I'm definitely beginning to overcome my haphephobic issues, which makes me happy because I like being able to feel comfortable with touch, it's good for you, and Master spent a lot of time petting me as I knelt beside Her, during Our first time being able to be in each other's presence. It was ... screw it, it was fucking magical is what it was.
I felt whole and Home for the first time in my life.
I Love You Master, with all of my heart and every fiber of my being.
I Trust You Master, with my heart and with my health and with my life.
It brings me great Joy to be so near to You, living in the same city.
You are my Bright and Beautiful Sky, and I think of You every time I look up.
- Protected Slave and Property of the Magnificent Miss_Misanthropy,
Privileged to be Master's Adoring Pet Whore, Ophelia
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